Battle of Wills

28 12 2009

There is a battle which we often tend to ignore or not noticing its importance, the battle of wills. I remember not so fondly about the times in one of my army trainings, my instructor will say it is all in the mind, physical pain is nothing. At that time, I thought he was being ridiculous. Fortunately over the years, I realized the simple truth in that, the battle of our mind and will precedes the toughest of battles in life. Whether we are preparing for a tough time ahead in our career, or tackling a monster of some undesired habits, or even through some struggles, the crud of the tipping point of victory lies in us facing the issue in the will.

The problem is not about victory in life, but that we are holding on to a defeated mindset of the past life – the fallen nature, and refusal to put on the right identity of Christ. Of all people, I am guilty of all the charges. Despite knowing all these, does not mean I have gotten the victory, as knowledge is but a first step to gaining that victory. Through the empowerment of the Holy Spirit in revelation given to us through the Word of God, it is our decision now, to fight it out in the battle of will, to allow ourselves to be transformed first in our mind, next through our lives, that we will grow to be more like Christ. This battle is part of a life long war waged against the fallen world and nature.


The universe and me

30 11 2009

If the relative size of a speck of dust compared to the universe is so insignificant then so is ourselves? Can we measure who we are and what our destiny should be to such drastic comparison? Such comparison is mere exaggeration and inaccurate to say the least but it is how human tend to use to say something about their destiny or themselves don’t they?

The importance of one’s worth and destiny is not measured merely in its size but on which those worth and destiny are built on? Is it built on a good cause, material wealth or something bigger than ourselves? One said that unless our worth, destiny lies in a bigger cause than ourselves, it is not worth a single moment of our lives. Question is what is my worth? It is immeasurably big, bigger than this universe because it is rooted in the very cause in relentless pursuit of who God is, that is the bedrock of my worth and destiny.

Guard thy heart

18 11 2009

Not just against all manners of fleshly lust but against invisible human menaces such as pride, jealousy, hatred, selfishness and self condemnation. Too often have we associate the command to guard our hearts and have never considered its essence. True christianity lies in its application first on the condition of our spirit and soul and then physical for what transpires in the making and moulding of our soul must result in a physical change. The changing of our heart must result in a selfless act of considering others better than ourselves to a total surrender to the almighty God. It is a process as delicate as the hands of the surgeon and we can place our trust in him who is the master potter. Let the process of guarding our heart, conditioning of our mind and the changing process of our mind and heart begin so we can till one day be truly like Christ.


22 10 2009

Friendship and its meaning has changed over the years for myself. I have lost some true friends and have made quite a number of acquaintances. Along the way too friendship is broken down with good friends and mostly insignificant ones and another category appears when I came unwillingly into the marketplace.

If I were to be asked if I have any friends I would probably say no. Not that I am a hermit but perhaps I have had friendship which I wish I had kept and protected but I did not. When comes to friendship I must admit among many other things a total failure. What would I look for in a friendship beside the kindred spirit?

I looked at myself most of all that how can anyone want me to be their friend?seriously I am mean and I mean it I am a mean bastard that selfishness i realized one of the strongest trait I have with regards to friendship. I think it is giving selflessly that truly defines friendship, and I have none of it. Can I give selflessly? Sure I am capable of but I measure who is worthy of my selfless act! Ya that is pure selfishness. Mercy often said I am and I casually remarked that I sell prawns and crabs too.

I wonder why am I the way I am. No I am not attempting to be philosophical but i am so sick of life. Life of meeting repayment of financial obligations and debt, working to earn a miserable and meagre pay and I wish I am heathier like running on a marathon, swim daily, kick the ball and to do so without breaking out a migraine and I think life has taken out a chunk of joy and I absolutely hate it. Now I am merely a computer football player or I can only dream of taking beautiful picture and travel the world with mercy and even to see the need of the orphans and widows and lamenting about it. It is such position now I hate and I think such attitude to life affects directly to how I view friendship. No friendship is worth the keep especially when there is so much shit in life and I do not need more shit in building or investing into other people other than keeping my life out of the stupid mess I am already in.

Wha is wrong with me? I need a radical change of heart to look at lives and people of what matters more to Jesus. I need to wiper to clear the clutter of my eyes and heart to see what matters more eternally. Friendship being one of them. Now in the midst of planning for my wedding I do not actually intend to invite any friends except those on mercy’s side. I do not intend to have a best man and I think I relished the quiet solitude in life that I love the clutter free circle of acquaintances.

See being nice to others always held some form of expectation. When they don’t meet up to the expectation they drop dangerously below the standard. I remember who had been kind to me and who didn’t and it is a heavy burden on this friendship business that i very much prefer to drop it off at the top of the dusty shelf that says storeroom and of no noble consequences.

Why the church must twitter?

15 01 2009

“I am confident – no matter what type of church you are leading, no matter what type of community you are ministering to, no matter how much you do or don’t like technology – this E-Book will lead to a conversation that needs to be had.”

Terry Storch –

I wonder should the Church be twittering? Twittering is one of the social media platform that’s gaining rapid popularity among netizens. The platform is so popular because it allows posting of short messages on a singular platform that allows followers to follow the updates to the moments in life.

It is a great marketing tool, of which i have been exploring as one of the main options in our social media marketing campaign. However for a church to employ this platform, it runs a greater risk of packaging our faith in a marketing aspects. Question remains, how can we remain relevant to this world without becoming the world? Christianity today seeks relevancy not just in its secular appeal such as sanctuary or a quasi-yoga’istic approach to life, but it is bigger than these, it seeks a spiritual revelation of our sinful nature and the Gospel of the good news in a Saviour revealed in the person Jesus. That He died for our sins and was buried but on the third day, He rose again, and ascended into the heavens and He will be back. It is a spiritual message that must dawn in the human spirit an absolute moral direction as a result of a regeneration of our spirit.

Then the question would make more sense in whether the Church must twitter rather than Why the church should twitter.

13 01 2009

The Sky over EVVOThe beautiful sunset over the eastern sky of Singapore brought me to a standstill from the overwhelming clouds that I thought, the world is so big, and I am so small.

The wonder of life, is complicated with the pain; which so often is the subject of question of why. I’ve just learnt that a friend’s granny just passed away, i can’t helped but thought that as one grows older, such incidents must be common or increasingly common.

Is Man ready for pain, or the capacity to understand it? Perhaps Pain is the best testimony that there is a God, for He went through the pain of seeing Jesus dying on the cross, and that must be it, the so called imprint of one’s destiny with eternity lies with the issue of Pain and how Man handles it.

Guitar and Guitar Effects for sale!

9 01 2009

If anyone is interested to adopt and take over my guitar and guitar effects. Please drop me an email at

Ibanez Guitar comes with an electronic tuner, straps, and an hard case. I will include a distortion box as well @ $450 and the Zoom Multi-Effects G2.1U @ $150